Rough Draft

This isn't my normal essay.. I tried something new and I don't quite know how I feel about it! :

Ahhh, “you time.”  Some dread it, others indulge in it. Some consider it confinement, others consider it a very pleasant solitude. I’m one to consider it the latter. There are just so many things you can do to fill up the (probably) limited time you have by your lonesome.

Pick up a book. Try to cook something. Nap! Watch the television shows/movies you want. Write in a diary. Take a bike ride or go for a walk! Clean. Draw. Listen to music!  Lay in bed all day and evaluate your life! The last sounds a bit treacherous though..

If you live with someone, it’s a time that it’s not expected of you to listen to stories or respond to questions.  Silence just fills the air. It’s a time that no matter what you say aloud or do, nobody will see you to potentially judge you.

Have you ever just sat on a cozy chair next to the window and stared out of it, pondering life? Then wind up getting into that really nice stare where your eyes begin to zoom out? Then somebody you’re with either calls you out on it as if you didn’t mean to stare off. Or they will just break your peaceful concentration on the nothingness outside by asking you a question or making a remark. Either way causing you to lose that peaceful concentration. Sometimes it’s just nice to have that “nothing stopping me” feel.

How about when you’re listening to music with headphones and your friend wants to keep talking to you? Then you have to either pause the music, mute it, or constantly take a headphone out. Sometimes it’s nice to just listen to songs straight through and allow your thoughts to trail off. Sometimes listening to the right songs will inspire you to get something done that you wouldn’t otherwise do if you had the distraction of a friend around.

It’s quite nice, if you ask me, to sit down with a warm blanket, tea and your favorite book. The joy of reading is putting and inventing yourself in another world. You forget your own surroundings and you feel like you’re in this alternate universe. Your mind becomes filled with scenes from the story. But it’s not quite the same when your best friend, significant other, or family member interrupts it with questions or favors: Can you read this text for me? What shirt looks better with these pants? Which filter should I use for this picture?

You become engrossed in the story, then you’re taken away from it. Then you’re back in temporarily, then back out. Kind of loses the excitement of reading when you’re in and out of the story.

My personal pet peeve is when you are attempting to nap. Your friends/family come and go, chatter grows amongst each other, make a sound with every object in the room, laugh. You fall in and out of sleep as the noise stops and then continues again.  Or you’re just completely resting with your eyes shut but unable to fall into the oblivion you were hoping for.

If you’re an artsy person and you’re trying to make some sort of drawing or painting, or whatever art may catch your attention at the time, it takes the sincerity out of it when your thoughts are interrupted. To draw is sometimes a very thought out thing, however other times it’s just a quick thing that spurted in your mind. When it’s a very thought out thing, people tend to need their space and quiet or particular music to be on. This hobby can be very difficult to pursue in if you’re not one to ever get the alone time needed for it.

You know when you’ve been waiting several weeks for your favorite show to start up again, then when it does, the people you live with or just choosing to watch it with talk through the whole thing? It’s honestly the worst. You want to hear every word out of your favorite actress’ mouth. You want to be taken out of your current world and into your favorite show with all the good drama and great looking actors. What good is doing so when when someone’s talking in the background, or talking to you when you’re trying to watch this show?